Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Day 1 of making conscious decisons at 30 years old

Day 1 of conscious decision making:

It was very eye opening to spend the entire day making conscious decisions. For so long, I’ve thought that every decision I was making was conscious, turns out that just isn’t so. More often I find myself making decisions based on habits I’ve formed, especially around food and exercise.
While I have a notebook I’m using to document my decisions, I won’t bore you with all the details … maybe just a few with a few points on each. I’ll focus on decisions I made and how they made me feel.

I was able to squeeze in 30 minutes of my yoga dvd before work. Before the workout my self talk was ‘I don’t have time’, ‘I’ll start tomorrow’. Ultimately, I knew I would feel better for making an effort in moving my body for a bit.

Did really well the first part of the day, made solid decisions and felt good. We were working on a late night project at work and my company bought us pizza. This was a moment for me. I enjoy living life. I enjoy social camaraderie around food and drinks. It felt good to choose to have 1 piece of pizza (they were big slices folks, large Chicago style pieces) and be done (where I normally would have had 2 or 3 without thinking). Now, here is where the learning comes into play. 2 ½ hours later, when the project was done I was still hungry and we found ourselves, once again, gathered around the cold pizza. Instead of one of the healthy snacks I had in the fridge (yogurt) I had another piece and wasn’t satisfied at all. Gross.
Satisfaction. In the moment I’ll be asking myself what will make me feel satisfied and what are my options. While I did choose the 2nd piece, It wasn’t what would make me satisfied, and I knew it.

Then … ohh yes … more indulgence … we went out for a cocktail. Could I have had water? Yes. But, I had a vodka soda instead. I’m a beer girl … but for the sake of calories and overall drink vs. diet I went with the vodka soda. Once in a while I’ll have water, ice tea, etc. and some days I’ll be having a drink. That’s the way it’s gonna be.


M said...

This is such a difficult process. You can do it!

LeeLee said...

The pizza scenario is truly me. I will have one slice, not be filled, sit around and have another and another!!! What's up with that? I wish I knew how to get a handle of my greed b/c that's what it is! We will get there hun!!! Just keep pushing!

P.S. Thank you for the kind comments on my legs! LOL that made my day!